October 2024

Story about the Human Design immersion with Mary Ann and Pavaka and being in Ibiza with my dad.

I came home from two days immersion..

Sacral Generator dad who isn’t in HD at all: What did you learn today?

Me: do you wanna know?

Dad: yes

Me (taking a moment to find the words to squeeze all the experiences and wisdom into sentence that’s as short as possible): that I need to shut up.

Dad laughs really loud.

Still laughing..

Finally after laughing dad: but what if others want to know what you have to say?

Me: they’ll ask me

Dad nods: that makes sense.

End of the short conversation about 2 days of immersion work. It hits home. This was so correct, for the both of us.

In the past I’ve been so mad at my dad. He was absent, physically and emotionally. I was so mad, blaming and shaming him. How I treated him. How I tried to find his triggers, just to get some reaction or recognition. What a drama it has been.

Now after HD I can see he is one of the few people in my life who is just being who he is. It’s just his design. I stopped the guilt trip. We both relaxed more.

And now.. Now it’s really flowing between us. I just shut up. He doesn’t say much. It goes like:

Dad: I like this store.

Me: do you wanna go in?

Dad: yes

End of conversation

Or..

Dad: do you smell that?

Me: do you like it?

Dad: no

End.

There’s a flow. There’s a dance. It wasn’t the immersion that was the biggest gift here being on Ibiza, it is dancing with my dad.